The Bubbling Brook

But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions – it is by grace you have been saved. – Ephesians 2:4-5, NIV.

Our church completed 21 days of prayer & fasting this morning. While it was beautiful, revelational and life-altering, it was also hard, frustrating and confusing. Some days I felt like I was being attacked from all sides with anxiety, doubt and fear about where I fit in this world and if I was living the way I was designed. On Wednesday of last week during a low point in the fast, I went to a worship night in Indiana where I re-learned how to walk in a manner that is pleasing to the Lord. I discovered that all of my hustle and pressure I was putting on myself to be ‘Christ-like’ was keeping me from the one true thing that would heal me – and that was the receiving of God’s love.

My whole life I have struggled with receiving. I don’t know if it comes from a foundation of feeling unworthy of love or trying to convince myself that I if I work hard enough I will earn my way to love, but deep down my heart’s first reaction is to question love. It’s as if I have to use a sifter when it comes to receiving love, ensuring that there are no rocks or hidden motives inside of the love I’ve been given. This has made it much harder to receive the love that Jesus has showed me and has left me confused on why I can’t think my way out of anxiety, stress or worry. I now know that there is no thinking necessary when God is readily handing his love out to those who need refreshing. Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. – Matthew 11:28-29, NIV.

Lord, let me receive your love to overflow so I may pour into others from a full cup. Help me stay out of my own way so that I may graciously receive your mercy and grace that I do not have to understand. Allow me to walk in a posture of gratitude that you died on the cross because you LOVED me – not because I deserved salvation but because you LOVE your children. Amen.

Have an amazing week everyone – stay prayed up ❤

If you’d like me to pray for you, please send prayer requests to: bubblingbrookinc@gmail.com